Just had my fourth realization in the last four days. The accumulation of those realizations made me realize. This is serious. This is real. If this ends badly what now stands before you could easily be a crumpled heap of “what-ifs”, “used-to-be’s”, and lost emotions. It could be so horrible. However, If I have something as real as I do why would I dwell on unlikely catastrophic possibilities when I can bask in the very real blessings before me? I know that bad things happen but good things happen too. My most recent realization is a sign that this is most definetly a good thing. I am probably better off not to question it.